I Need Some Respect!

Today is a very tiring day. I got no breakfast and lunch schedule in the dining room, but in the marshalling area instead, for heavy loading. We load frozen foods onto the ship for next couple of days stock.

After freezing and exhausting job, I definitely need a good rest before rumbling with thousand of guests in formal night in the main dining room.

Unfortunately some of my colleagues came in to my room when I was sleeping, they made a noise.

They came in because my other friend in the other cabin complained to them for the same reason, making noise and smoking in the cabin. And they had a mouth fight out there.

I was thinking if they come in again to my cabin and become annoying, I will complain too. And yes, they cqme in, make some noise, but I remained silent on my bed. My roommate warned them not to be noisy, but they just take it for granted.

So there was me, laying on my bed with a bunch of emotions. I can’t get into a fight that can lead me to dismissal, so without saying anithing, I hit the metal wall of my cabin, fortunately they understood what i meant, so they went away. If they didn’t understand, they might feel sorry for the dismissal, including me.

But still, after they went away, I can’t take a nap again, I just can’t sleep after the adrenalin rush into my head. So I spent my time writing this post..

Ups, it’s time to prepare for dinner duty..

Worst Team

Team work is esential for almost all of companies around the world. In hotelier industry, everyone must work as team, even one department must work with another department to build a strong hotel or restaurant.

Worst Team: group of people with different objectives, different perspectives, different ideas, different working spirit, different culture/brotherhood.

I made the paragraph above because found that it’s true in my workplace.

I have a team of four people that assigned one same job every night. And in different place (still in one department) there is one more team with the same number of member and job description with mine.

I can compare both of the team easily, like black and white.

My team, can’t do the job before 10PM, while we are in one condition: “the sooner we finish the job, the sooner we can go back to our cabin to take a rest”.

I always come much earlier, start doing the job myself, because im tired and want to finish it early. The thing is, the other guys dont have the same idea with me, so how i can make it? It pissed me off.

Like today, my team member come one by one just after 10pm. One guy worked slowly, walked slowly, and did the job in different place like he wasn’t belong to the team. The other two guys didn’t work seriously, while I was doing the job, they walked away and made cappucinno for their self. What the f??

Compared to the another team, when i was walking to my workplace to start working, they already did about 50% of their job. What an awesome team. I wish i was a part of that team. Moreover we come from the same island, same objectives and the same spirit will make us even stronger.

My team?? -,- hopeless!

malam minggu

Tidak ku sangka hari ini adalah hari sabtu, berarti sekarang malam minggu. Ah, aku memang payah dari dulu, tidak pernah ingat kalau lagi malam minggu.

Mungkin karena sudah tidak lagi menopang wajah ngantuk di meja SMA, atau karena sudah tidak pernah memperhatikan dosen dengan terpaan angin dari AC yang membuat ngantuk juga. Setiap hari sudah tidak pernah melihat jadwal kuliah. Jadi hari-hari ini sama saja.

Ingin sebenarnya seperti pemuda yang lain, tiap malam minggu keluar cari angin. Atau jalan bersama pacar walau anginnya dingin. Melihat kenyataan: sesak di bathin.

Hahahaha… tapi tak apa.. ini bukan untuk membuat kalian iba, ini hanya kumpulan kata, untuk menghibur kalian-kalian dengan nasib yang sama. Memperlihatkan kalau kita tidak beda, NASIB KITA SAMA.

Malam minggu kelabu? enaknya sambil dengerin lagu ini nih:
Loving You – Minnie Riperton -> download disini
Alone Again Naturally -> download disini (Versi ICE AGE: DAWN OF THE DINOSAURS) atau disini (versi aslinya)

what’s the point of all this shits?

I’m such a total jerk lately. oh… I’m so fucked up, I’m jobless, and nearly homeless..

Fortunately I got enough money in my bank account to support my fucking life for next 15 days, coz it is impossible to beg something from my fams since I’m a jobless motherfucker. So I’m counting on my own now.

This is just a shame of me. I can’t even dare my self to show my face in front them. That’s why I decided to live far away from them and come home only if they need me.

I’m just an useless dickhead. Maybe you know how does it feels if you’re a grown up men and jobless, and if you’re not a jerk, then you wont ask anything to your fams. Coz men has to face their own destiny.

I don’t have a job for this pass 1 month, coz I don’t want to have one. Why? don’t ask me why coz I don’t know either. It’s like, there are so many confusions in my head that wont let me to do the right things in the right time. So many of them!

I’ve blamed my self for all this shits. For all the things I didn’t do before. For being an useless men ever live. For ain’t doing things to support my fams.

But what’s the point off all this shits? I don’t even try to do things to show that I’m a good son. I’m not like my friends, they study in university, they work and live on their own, their parents must be proud of them.

Arrgghhhh…. I’m such a big embarrassment they ever had. I could commit suicide if I don’t love ‘em.

I don’t expect anyone help in this situation, except if they could give me a better things to do instead of wandering around my boarding house until next 2 weeks before I go to Denpasar to apply for a job aboard.