it’s been 5 days I’m not in a fit condition. I got runny nose, headache, cough, and I got problem with my respiratory system. The worst thing is I lost my weight 😮

it’s not just because I drank many unhealthy things, but also I haven’t take any exercise for more than two weeks. such a common causal for me.

that’s why today I hit the gym even I hardly breath on the treadmill, but my spirit insisted! it’s been tradition to do sport, and I should maintain this thing.

I don’t wanna look skinny when I got home next two months. I must gain weight! yosh!!! ganbatte!!!!! MAXIMUS!!!!!!

I still remember one dialogue from one of HIMYM episode entitled The Chain of Screaming if I’m not mistaken. but i don’t remember from which season or what episode number.

It was like this:

“your report is crap! oh no, that’s just an insult to crap. if crap could eat, and crap the stuff out, then your report is the crap that the crap crap!”

Ouch… that’s harsh.. but yeah, it’s what I’m gonna use to describe one decission made by somebody to change my function in the late snack duty. His decision is CRAP THAT THE CRAP CRAP!

Without thinking the next operational result, he rolled the rules. Big change! I was a supplier before, so I could do my another job in different restaurant easily. But now I should take care of the drink station in which that’s mean I should just stay there and let my another job left behind.

You see, he said the reason was “so you can’t go anywhere, you should stay here until it finished”

Yeah, because he make it personal, I won’t take this professionally. Now, I still respect his uniform and his function, so I can’t do anything about it. But I hope I will not see him im another place, in Jakarta or Bali, because I might do something stupid to him.

Again, another insomnia.. while waiting Anita get back from her business, I will tell u a story about me and my plans which gone a wee bit different from the reality.

Back in fall of 2009, I was just graduated from SMANSA Singaraja. I continued to one of many cruise n hotel school in Denpasar. For the first time in my life, i focused on my future life. :-O And then it hit me, for the first time in my life, i focused to my own life!!!  😀

I was planning to work for italian cruising company in which my campus are built for, the MSC. I dreamed 3 years from that time, i will be wearing those fancy uniform serving the guest while cruising around the world.

But in the 2012 for real, I’m not too far from my plan. Well, at least i still serve the guest even finally i didn’t apply in that italian company. I applied in another cruising company which need more intelligence and hospitality. Moreover, there are some of my relatives who are working here.

And now, I can see my self three years from now, I will be in a higher position with higher salary. I will start building my own house and saving for my future. Maybe by that time I will start to think about who is the lucky girl to be my woman. “lucky girl to be my woman”.. 😀 that’s funny.. since I don’t even think about it right now..

So, let see how it’s gonna be in 2015.. B-)

It’s been a couple of days I hardly sleep every single of the night.. Even now, I can’t fall asleep.. I got headache.. 🙁

I don’t know why.. maybe just because I’m too tired.. or because I’m cursed for being too mean to someone. Someone.. a girl.. that used to be very special.. or even worse, two girls.. :-[

The story’s started back in the spring 2011 (Feb) when I was working for a company in Singaraja. I was in a serious relationship with this girl, let’s say her name was Honey. Honey, worked in Denpasar. So it was a long-distance relationship or LDR as youngster knows..

But, I broke the relationship with her for a simple reason, i wanna focus to my job. At that time I didn’t feel any feeling to her, i didn’t know why, it was just… gone.. maybe i was just toooooo focused to my job. So, with so many tricks and helps from my dear old friend, i got rid of her. By the time I saw her walked away the gate of my former apartment, i felt that i was being so mean.

Few weeks later, I got into another relationship with another girl.. #what????
Yes, the very same girl who helped me to get rid of my previous ex. Let say her name was Baby. It was a challenging path to stay together with her. So many obstacles, so many challenges, so many stories. Long story short, still, it wasn’t ended happily like the previous one.

After more than one year of unstable relationship, we finally separated by thousands of miles, another LDR in a different continent. For God sake.. why in the world i broke the relationship for the same reason?? I just wanted to focus on my job, didn’t want to have any relationship with anyone, not that i turned into a gay, but i’ve lost my feeling.

After two girls being hurted, now i feel so guilty. But what can I do? I can not just go back to one of them, I cant just turn back the time so I can tell my self to keep them as my soulmate.

The only thing i can do to make it right is to ask for their forgiveness. For sure, I will still feeling guilty even after they have forgiven me.

And now I’m listening to this MP3 in my xperia, Jar of Hearts – Christina Perry. Wow, i can’t explain how i feel (” ‘︿’)

Countdown to my homecoming has been started today. Three more months to go, and I’ll come back to my lovely Singaraja. Maybe I’ll be the old me, just a regular guy wandering around the block without any destination. (H)

Yet, that’s all are still blur. I need to arrange my sched 😉

Well, the first week at home.. I will spend my time for sleeping, laying, lazying, GETTING FAT! hahaha.. 😀 payback time!

Then.. the next thing is to go around Bali.. sure I will need a car or a bike to do it.. hemm.. maybe i will rent a car, or buy a new bike for me.. it’s kinda 3-4 months off, so i will need a bike so bad.. what? V-ixion? again?? still.. need to think twice to buy anything more than $100. 🙂

And then.. a place to live in Singaraja.. need time to search the perfect one.. but I’ll find it for sure..

a lot more to do.. I’ll add some more to the list.. later.. (H)

Since two weeks ago, my main job in the dining room has been changed. From a food runner who always play with foods, to a beverage runner who take care the beverage order.

From couple dollar beers to hundred bucks champagne.

This is kinda new workplace for me, different setup, different guys, and higher responsibility.

Jadi tiap malem udah pasti sedikit pusing, pusing karena ngeliat begitu banyaknya jenis wine, beer, liquor, liquer. Apalagi kalo udah disuruh nyobain beberapa wine atau cocktail, ya tambah pusing..

But, this is the milestone to get to higher step. Yosh.. Ganbatte!